I know many of you would ask me, why would I do such a thing? Why would I waste my time, effort, and money on something that I will simply stop doing? There are actually many reasons for this.
My family does not own a car and has not owned one for at least the last decade. My mom simply hated driving and never had the financial capability to own and maintain a car. Therefore, I never really had a chance to experience what it is like to have a very convenient method of transportation at any period of time, at any time of the day. The only exception to this is when I am with friends and relatives who do drive. There was simply no motivation to do it.
I felt that I was learning to drive simply for the sake of fitting with social norms. I like driving to some extent, however, my enjoyment of driving is not to the extent where I would wake up excited to be on the road. The only positive feeling I felt was when someone asked me if I have my license yet, to which I simply answer, "Oh, I'm learning how to right now," and divert the conversation to another topic. From this fact alone, I doubted my reason to continue my lessons, especially my willingness to take the driving exam and pass it. At the same time, I feared being judged by my friends and family, and all the possible consequences to my career, academics, or even my health in general.
Yet, despite my worries, I ended my lessons one day before my scheduled exam, because I wanted to stay true to myself and to what I believe in, by reason and intuition. I learned to stop doing something that I had no motivation for. I learned to stop doing something that I was doing only for the sake of fitting in with social norms.
But at the end of the day, I will pick up driving again; sometime in the future, when the time is right.
My family does not own a car and has not owned one for at least the last decade. My mom simply hated driving and never had the financial capability to own and maintain a car. Therefore, I never really had a chance to experience what it is like to have a very convenient method of transportation at any period of time, at any time of the day. The only exception to this is when I am with friends and relatives who do drive. There was simply no motivation to do it.
I felt that I was learning to drive simply for the sake of fitting with social norms. I like driving to some extent, however, my enjoyment of driving is not to the extent where I would wake up excited to be on the road. The only positive feeling I felt was when someone asked me if I have my license yet, to which I simply answer, "Oh, I'm learning how to right now," and divert the conversation to another topic. From this fact alone, I doubted my reason to continue my lessons, especially my willingness to take the driving exam and pass it. At the same time, I feared being judged by my friends and family, and all the possible consequences to my career, academics, or even my health in general.
Yet, despite my worries, I ended my lessons one day before my scheduled exam, because I wanted to stay true to myself and to what I believe in, by reason and intuition. I learned to stop doing something that I had no motivation for. I learned to stop doing something that I was doing only for the sake of fitting in with social norms.
But at the end of the day, I will pick up driving again; sometime in the future, when the time is right.
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